Question that I have answered…...

I am back after long time. It’s been nearly 2 years since I lost words.

Today is Saturday….a day I hate to go to work but today I am beyond that. Something has changed and I am happy today…..

Last 38 years of my life, I lived out of brain…always gave precedence to work, career….taken decision based on logic only. No…I am still not making it clear. OK…let me put it this way… Philosophy of my life was ”what ever I do should yield something tangible” i.e. making money & more money, career growth & more growth…if I am having drink with some one in evening that has to be for better job or business opportunity etc. Mom used to ask “It’s been 2 years when are you going to come home?” My stipulated answer was”My chairman is visiting…got a business trip coming up…so may be after that”. And mom that loving lady, who misses me terribly, used to feel sad and used to say “OK; try if you can come early”.

Today when I look back I ask myself “WAS I HUMAN?”

About 3 years back “M” came in my life. It was like fresh air. But after couple of month, a duel started. I was dueling with me whether to live out of brain or live out of heart and the duel continued… The very presence of “M” started a movement of change….she wanted to change everything …..change the way I live, the way I dress, the way I eat….don’t smoke….no drinking…THE WAY I THINK & LIVE.

”What nonsense is this? Why are you working so late?”…..
“What nonsense is this? Why are you traveling so much?”....
"What nonsense is this? Why can’t you stop taking calls in late evening? This is your personal time which is entirely mine"...
“What nonsense is this? Why do you have to that for your company? It’s not right…you wont do this again.”

Those were some standard complains of “M”….Anything that does not match her yard-stick is “nonsense”. Life was not easy. I was tearing apart…wanted to think & live the way I am accustomed to. But I also wanted to be human & live a decent life. I didn’t want to break the frame and same time wanted the change….wanted “M" with me. I invented many logics. In that process, at times (no…most of the times), I have hurt “M” badly but she stood by. “M” used to say (sadly) “what nonsense is this? Some day you will realize, my way is the right way to live”. After that she would not talk to me for sometime…hug her doggy & cry…

That how I lived last 2 years...“What nonsense was that?” Anything that does not match her yard-stick is “nonsense”… :-)

What's so special today? This morning when I got up, I suddenly realized I have changed. I have taken the 1st decision of my life based on “Personal Priority”. I have decided to resign from work which was keeping away from my family & “M”. I am relocating myself and taking up another job. I am marrying "M". I have realized “M” is right….life is not about only logic.

Today, I am attached to my family….cant think of my existence without having “M” in my life. AND I AM A HAPPY MAN…

Thanks “M”… I owe you a lot…..HEY I LOVE YOU……

This morning I had the answer…..